you know might never happen;
but it's harder to give up when
you know it's everything you want."
So, I am feeling a bit dramatic this week...Well, not really, but I feel like this quote could be perceived that way.
This week, I submitted my proposal for a project that I have been working on for almost two years! In that time, I have become very attached to my project and am kind of on pins and needles waiting to hear back on it.
And I think we all have those times in our life, where we are incredibly invested in something and praying it works out, but know there is a possibility things won't go our way. This possibility tends to be frightening because though the wait is frustrating and tiresome, the thought of things not working out is what will actually affect us because of how much it means to us. And this "it" is not just a project (personal, academic, work, or otherwise) but can be something less tangible and predictable, like a personal life goal or a relationship. Those tend to be even more difficult because of the depth of emotion and uncertainties that we as people have to deal with (with ourselves and others.)
So, I guess the point of today's post is when you're waiting for "it" and it's been a while (days, weeks, months, years), remember what it means to you. If it's a project, then the time, effort, and joy that has happened along the way (and has yet to come!), and if it's a relationship (with yourself or someone else) of what that person (or yourself) means to you. Ultimately, what defines us is how we spend our time and what we are willing to commit it to.